I WALKED to the liquor store to get wine and then carried two huge bottles back to my apartment…this place isn’t close people. My friends thought I was crazy but after getting back on the scale today after not being on for so long I was upset with what I saw.
However, my bf is convinced I’ve gained muscle and that I shouldn’t be upset. I mean today was the first day I’ve done cardio since last week - I’ve only been lifting weights because last wednesday I was so upset with how my arms and back looked and how much muscle I lost after surgery. So even with just a week, my back has changed and I feel so much better having muscle. butttt my legs are getting bigger and that’s frustrating. So I did interval training today which kicked my ass but hopefully doing cardio will burn the fat that is nicely resting on my new muscles.
AND i’m going to nacho night tonight and NOT getting nachos. self control at it’s finest. gotta look good for tomorrow night!!! :)
even though I really don’t want to because it’s a long walk and it looks like it is about to hardcore storm outside. it’s 2 and it’s dark enough I need my lights on in my apartment to see. so tempted to do a home workout but I know “home workout” means sit on my computer and watch tv. and I already promised the BF that I would meet him there…. then we’re doing ab ripper x tonight. …getting in shape for the obx in less than 2 months!!
"I have come to accept the feeling of not knowing where I am going. And I have trained myself to love it. Because it is only when we are suspended in mid-air with no landing in sight, that we force our wings to unravel and alas begin our flight. And as we fly, we still may not know where we are going to. But the miracle is in the unfolding of the wings. You may not know where you’re going, but you know that so long as you spread your wings, the winds will carry you."
— C. Joybell C. (via linda-rr)
(Source: xzxcuzx-me, via spareunderthemat)
sick…again. when will this ever end?
cramps…the worst.
got a C on a test that I thought I did really well on…. and the fact that I got a C on something upsets me greatly. Can’t lose it last semester. Gotta keep my GPA up. I’m thinking if I can get an A on both the other two exams I can still push my way up to a B+ and possibly and A- if I don’t miss a class from here on out (which normally wouldn’t be an issue but going to this class is beyond pointless when she puts ALL the notes up online and simply reads the powerpoints in class..)
also, I’m a teaching assistant and am currently in the process of meeting with the 9 groups in my class 2x each in the next three days + the week after spring break…and I just got 2 more meetings on top of that dumped on me. Meaning I have 16 left to do (NO ONE schedules meetings and I’ve been on their asses enough about it already) and its getting to be ridiculous. When do I get to do my own work??
Making a to do list for the rest of the week to make myself feel better:
Tonight:
-Finish study guide for political campaign exam
-put away laundry
-finish ethics homework
-watch The Lying Game (obsessed)
Tomorrow:
-class
-class
-study for political campaign exam
-meeting?
-finish debate annotated bibliography
-gym (take it easy unless I’m feeling better)
Wednesday:
-class
-meeting
-meeting
-meeting
-study
-pack
Thursday:
-take exam
-debate
-clean
-GO TO CALIFORNIA.
